resolutions...

yeah. a bit later than the typical "goal-setter" it seems. only two months later and a couple handfuls of days, nothing to get too up-tight about. intentions are ok. but the question awaiting a neat answer, will surely be disappointed.

will i achomplish the following list?

will i follow through in order to receive a nice pat on the back from my well-meaning conscience? attainable?

are they life-giving and purpose-reminding?

will they cause my body to get a restless night's sleep if i do not work my hardest at them?

at the end of the year?

or that week?

or that day?

i want to be about the deeping burning of life and truth that will not allow my mind to get soft, or my heart to get hard.

i want to know this god inbetween the stories and snapshots of his character-- what makes his laugh and weep, and to honor that holy lord- what is it even about?

i want to know.

but not only know.

not simply know.

i yearn to dwell in it.

i yearn to be exhausted agian, becease he truely does give sips of refreshing water during those times.

oh, i want to lap at the stream where he and i can just be. so anyways... i want a lot of stuff. i want to learn, and grow, and be and dance. ramblings-- and jasmine kersting give "it" your heart, or else you won't.

some of the trivial and not-so trivial stuff I want to do before January 1, 2006: -read more. -laugh more. -learn to roller-skate. -visit Sandi in FL. -run a marathon. -finish a large painting: oil on canvas. -visit Amber in Boston. -pay off the car loan I have out. -finish some written work on Sarah. -pay off some college loans. -stop speeding. -attend the BHS 2000 reunion. -learn more so who my parents are. -read through the bible. -stop, look, and listen daily. -be authentic all-the-time. -allow myself to get bloody knees. -see, really see, people. -bike, a lot. -learn harmonica agian. -look into the fire. -change, grow, be still, trust, stand. -be aware of world events.

-dance.

-continue and have fun!